Energetic Investments

Energy Reading for the week of April 29 ~ May 5

This is a collective reading, only take what resonates, gender does not apply. When this message reaches you it is divinely timed.

The energy for this week feels so calm… but only if you’re riding the waves and surrendering to your path and accepting the duties you have to partake in daily in order to create the long lasting shifts you want to see for the future. It’s in the little choices in each moment that are the gears in which turn the wheel of your destiny. There's a sense of gaining traction, I love the feeling I am receiving from it, like we kind of get a kick in the behind to get us going. I am laughing out loud because I see a horse being kicked in the butt, but it’s coming from another horse, it feels you may receive some sort of insight by conversing with a friend or maybe even a stranger. It feels like a breakthrough, but it’s not harsh, it’s like an aha moment. This is why it will feel calm if you’re in the present moment because you will move through the “triggers” with ease. But for those that are feeling the energies harshly and react to everything as a personal attack are in a victim consciousness. Many people will be feeling defensive this week, I feel it’s best to lighten up and not take things so seriously. I am picking up on the masculine energy here, and this pertains to the masculine energy within us all. You can learn a lot about your ability to create the life you want by going over and recognizing the patterns formed by watching your Father. How did he handle conflict? How did he handle finances? How did he show love and affection? When you can see these patterns then you can begin to change them by being in the present moment and choosing to react from a state of awareness instead of a subconscious and habitual pattern that was learned. Basically it is a week of reparenting ourselves and taking the time to get back to the roots. It is the only way to completely rebuild a foundation.

The Moon represents Scorpio, the subconscious, secrets, fears, deception, intuition, illusions and illumination

I am seeing The Moon card from Tarot in my third eye and that is the energy I am feeling, we are deep in the collective subconscious and when you don't have a sense of your own energy you can easily get sucked into the collective masculine energy right now, which honestly feels lost, unhappy, suffocating, angry, frustrating and it is because they are trapping themselves into a box of what they think it means to behave like “men”. Just as us as women are looking deep into Savior Mentality and a sense of wanting to be rescued and swept off our feet, it’s an illusion that we are seeing through at this time and it’s incredibly important to be gentle with ourselves as we awaken to the conditioning of decades and remember that we are unlearning patterns taught to us by the people before us. Our ancestors are with us right now, supporting us and guiding us in a new direction, they want better for us, so they are trying to connect with us to tell us to forgive the men or people that wounded us and create a new idea and template of what it means to be a woman and or a man. Create your own beliefs and you create your own reality.

Currently for the feminine it is more common to manipulate men into having children instead of trusting ourselves enough to know our own time table. And so many feminines are unconscious of this wound, to them it is “normal” it’s most likely a pattern they learned from childhood and society and it creates a sense of being in control. When a feminine has a father wound she will want to dominate, it will be challenging for her to surrender and to receive. You can see this in receiving compliments, sexual gestures, affection, touching and any support from the masculine, even emotional support will feel unfamiliar and the feminine may feel unworthy of it. So many women feel pressured to be in a relationship and have children by a certain age in order to feel successful, in order to fit the mold of what they were taught it means to be a woman. They settle to quiet that voice in the back of their mind telling them they’re “too old”. Instead of trusting their own intuition and knowing that if they have a desire to be in a relationship and have children that they will attract that by focusing their energy on themselves instead of reaching for it from a partner. When we are in the energy of desperation and wanting to be in a relationship we will settle for crumbs just in order to feel less “alone’”. When a feminine ever feels alone it is because in some way “she” is disconnected from her Spirit. And a feminine dominant energy needs to be deeply connected to her soul and faith in order to feel a sense of safety and security she has long been taught for generations to rely on that from a partner/ man. In order to attract a partner that is stable; emotionally, financially, mentally, energetically and spiritually you need to become those things within yourself. Or you need to make the conscious effort to work on yourself while also holding space. So many women want to fill the void (which is actually divine timing for self care) with TV, sex, drugs, alcohol, shopping, working, food, social media, children, friends and relationships. They want to distract themselves instead of giving the love they want to receive from a partner or children to themselves. They tend to not leave space open for the things they truly desire, instead they are gratifying their ego and feel good for as long as the temporary high lasts, but then they’re onto the next distraction. The feminines greatest power is her ability to be present, that is how we connect with our children, it is how we take care of the Earth. Our neglect of self is severely reflecting in the neglect of Mother Earth. She is the Divine feminine. We can also find our true beauty through admiring the beauty of the Earth. It’s a natural and unique beauty, not a societal beauty that literally uses us to make money.

We as women want to receive yet we struggle to open up our hearts and truly let men see us for who we are and not how we want them to perceive us. Yes, we want to be strong and stand our ground, but this does not come from demasculinizing, demeaning or by putting them down in any way shape or form, it’s not about reigning supreme over men, it’s about understanding that we can be strong and still be soft. That we are equals, yet different, and that it’s beautiful, not a competition. A little playful competition is good, but it should be about cheering one another on! Choosing to focus on what your partner brings to you and their valuable qualities. As you do this you begin to see the value in the things you’ve deemed shameful or unworthy in yourself, it is extremely healing and humbling. When we neglect our feminine energy we neglect our bodies, our health, our finances and ultimately our partner and children. We get into a martyr mentality and put everyone else first and tell ourselves we’re being nobel, but really we become resentful because we’re burned out and need help, yet we’re too afraid to admit it and ask for help, because we now think we have to be “tough” in order to be “equal’. We also become entitled and when our way of living changes we don’t want to shift with it. A question to pose: If your partner woke up and told you they wanted to quit their job and pursue an acting career, become an artist or musician, would you still choose to support them and cheer them on? Would you choose to live with less if it meant your partner was happy and following their heart? I feel this pertains to so many divine masculines awakening to their purpose. A lot of them will feel called to express themselves, either through art, social media, music, speaking and shifting the paradigm for the masculine energy. Women that may have chose to settle and not follow their heart, but chose to marry for security and financial purposes may resist this change, by laughing or being unsupportive because it means her lifestyle would need to change in order for the relationship to evolve. If you can’t love your partner for who they are, let them go. That frees up your energy to find a better fit and it also frees the other person who most likely has a better suited partner as well. We hold on so tightly to the past because it is familiar. This is when we stagnate the relationship, when we neglect ourselves and tell ourselves we’re being a good, friend, wife, husband , girlfriend, boyfriend, father, mother sister and brother. But ONLY when we begin to put ourselves first without being dominating and without manipulating and without selfishness or personal gain do we see a shift in our relationships, not just with others, but most importantly ourselves. We receive more respect because we are respecting ourselves, meeting our own needs and keeping boundaries in check. We feel full of love because it’s coming from doing the things that fill us, that make us feel alive and passionate and then we want to give from that energy and then we receive the same energy in return because we are teaching others to treat us by what we do and do not tolerate, whether that be energetically or physically. We want men to treat us with high esteem, yet rarely as women do we treat ourselves in that way.

The feminine is distorted and it has removed faith/trust and emotion from the personality and creates an imbalance in the feminine energy. Most women were not taught how to nurture and care for the mind, emotions, body and soul. Most focus on body and material gain because they believe that is what a man will want. Many women are searching for validation from men, not love. They crave to be seen and understood for who they are and they feel equally as inadequate as the masculine at times, but for different reasons. We are both healing ancestral patterns this week and it's a great time to look back at the behaviors you learned from your mother. How did she care for herself? How did she handle finances? How did she show love and affection?

Honestly this is where the healing begins, because you can’t acquire new responses and new results until you begin to see where the belief was formed. It’s about plucking it from the root. When we bypass this step we are only cutting the top of the “weed” and it will grow back, meaning the only way to form new habits is by recognizing when you are doing said behavior you learned from either your mother of father (most likely) and choosing to do it in a new way that aligns more with your own belief system. That’s why presence is key to long term change. That’s also why fad diets don’t work or styles change frequently, but also circle back around. You may even want to dress different, or eat different. A sense of being more adventurous. I feel this collectively for both energies actually, a desire to change something in the physical. I highly recommend doing subtle things at a time, it’s not about drastic change it’s about revealing more of who you truly are. So many of us hide behind conformity because we don’t want to be “seen”. But what I am hearing is that those people are exactly the people that came to shine and create, stand out and make a difference in the world, literally just by being who they are and living how they choose. Healing the subconscious doesn’t “look” like work and I believe that is why the Universe is supporting my entire journey because without healing my belief system we can never truly change.

Starting at the roots is where you get long term results, to me it’s not about the physical transformation, it’s the energetic transformation that is astounding me. I am watching pieces of me fall away and as much as I want to be scared, because honestly I do and I am, I continue to allow it to happen because I come one step closer to who I want to be. I will always keep pushing through because the benefits of upgrading your belief system are the key to success in my opinion.

I am also picking up on a sense of “fear of failure”. I am getting this with both energies once again. One or both is worried about a relationship failing and also career and or passions. I am getting this is a form of self sabotage that we are getting a chance to heal. Looking back at society and our parents to see where we formed our beliefs about success, relationships, finances and purpose/passion. Failure is just an opportunity to go in a new creative routine. It’s a chance to learn and grow. Never be afraid of failing, be afraid of not trying. Really look at what we prioritize and invest our valuable energy in. Where are we investing our energy? Who are we investing our energy on? A sense of gathering information and paying attention to your behavior and reactions to your present surroundings. Getting more mindful and being in the here and now, help to relieve you from burdensome energy. When you sit around thinking about how to “solve the problem” you are actually blocking yourself from receiving the guidance you need in order to “come up with a solution” and you do this by doing things for yourself that feel good. What are your favorite activities? What are your hobbies? What are you passionate about?

Most of us were never taught how to come up with solutions, we’ve been taught how to worry and it keeps us stuck on an endless loop because we become victims of the own voices in our heads that tell us that we’re not “good enough”. This is where our masculine energy becomes imbalanced, when it relies too heavily on analysis that it literally self sabotages us from taking action. This is the distorted masculine energy we are unlearning, and what we’re learning is that by incorporating our feminine energy we’re not inadequate, we’re actually whole because we’re taking care of our mind, body and spirit so that we can take proper action in order to align with the aspirations we have for ourselves.

It's a sense of the energies and genders learning how to work together, that we were created as a duo for a reason, to create balance, to bring harmony. When these energies are resentful of one another or we are living by our parents and societies habitual patterns and wounds the relationship will stagnate and feel burdensome because you’re living out of alignment with your core beliefs from your soul. In order to align your beliefs you have to get to know your soul. You have to learn about who you are and what you like.

This brings me to the energy I was feeling for this week… SENSUALITY! It is coming in strong and I am loving it. Health truly is wealth and I have been feeling so good in my body, just by getting outside, dancing, touching my body, feeling the sun and wind on my skin, my feet on the earth and the birds flying and bathing in the creek. It’s about really looking for the beauty in the simple things, it helps you to stay in the energy of gratitude. I’ve been connecting with source through dancing and music and it is helping me stay feeling supported, because honestly things seem up in the air and when I am focusing too much on what's going wrong or what I don't have I get emotional, so I have been doing some healing through this sensuality and I feel that is the whole point, that we can heal in pleasure, that we can still feel beauty and love and still feel sad and alone and scared at the same time. When you’re that intune to your emotions, your body and soul you create an intimate bond with yourself, which in return helps you to be more vulnerable and intimate with the relationships around you. So even if things still seem foggy this week, just focus on the ground below you. Just as a car driving up a twisty winding road in the mountains can’t see his final destination, he can only see as far as his light reaches and still he trusts that he can make the trip. One step at a time is what I hear. There’s no rush, just as Nature takes it’s time coming back to life, so can you. Be gentle with yourself this week. Nourish your mind, body and soul through sensuality and presence this week and you may sail right through. But remember there's no shame in breaking down or taking a break, ALWAYS listen to your body and intuition above all else! We are healing our ability to trust ourselves again, how to rely on our own moral compass, as we become aware of these patterns we can hide in denial or we can do the work. Stay focused and optimistic Be patient and compassionate. Be strong and soft. That is your power.

Thank you for reading!

Love & blessings, Ashley <3

If you are looking to heal your self limiting beliefs, to do some research on your family patterns, gain insight about love, finances, career and purpose, I would love to access your higher self to help you help yourself! An investment in you could be the best investment you make! Email me for information if you’re interested and this message resonated for you! xo