A Conversation with God

I want to share with you a little piece of writing that was streaming through Divine Consciousness as I was praying & seeking answers. I have been “automatic writing” for a few years now. I also call it soul writing; when I just allow myself to begin sharing my thoughts or concerns to see what answers I will get in return. Practicing soul writing has really helped me to shift my consciousness. When I am feeling doubt and fear, to train my mind to shift my focus onto faith. The entry I am going to share with you was written a few months ago. I didn’t even recognize the “conversation” that was so clearly had with God until I recently looked back at my notes on my phone, which is where I do most of my writing. I do enjoy a good old fashioned pen and paper session, but it’s so convenient to just grab my phone, click an app and get channeling. A lot of times when I am writing it is really just a channeling of consciousness that is flowing through me, I just allow the words to come to me and write them, even if they don’t make any logical sense, or sound like they’re definitely not coming from me, but rather a Higher Power that is dwelling within me. When I wrote this I did not break it into sections like I have for you here, but when I went back and read it recently it was so clear to me that it was a communion with my Spirit, with the part of me that is God. I highly recommend soul writing, getting a journal and just allowing yourself to be in the stillness, in the quiet and begin to see what arises for you. If there’s something that is weighing heavy on you and you’re seeking guidance or support, always first turn inward to your own inner guidance system to help you understand before reaching to the “outside” for answers & certainty,because we already have the answers to the questions we seek, it’s just a matter of connecting with ourselves deeply and quietly enough that we can begin to hear the wisdom of our own body and Spirit.

Me: I don’t need you to love me for me to love you. My truth is that I love you, that doesn’t mean that your truth is that you love me & that is something I must accept. This feels so strange, I feel weak & strong at the same time. I have no other choice but to rely on my intuition at this point because being in my mind only makes me confused. In my heart I am seeing one thing & in my reality another. Things feel so in between & up in the air all at the same time. I feel tension & peace all at once. I sit in silent stillness & I am reassured that all is well & that there’s nothing to worry about, but I get caught in my mind & the stories are so obnoxious. It’s getting easier & easier to trust the light over the doubt. I’m focusing my mind more & more each day & it truly is empowering, I can feel it shifting my energy. Where I once was so rigid I am now becoming more fluid. It’s a challenging transition, but I’m feeling closer to turning this way of being into a habit. Becoming a person that thinks joyful, happy thoughts, a person who holds Christ in her mind at all times, who is a conduit for The Divine to move through, through movement, through art, through dance, through passionate sex, through nature. I open up & allow myself to bask in the glory of my Father knowing that I am loved & supported unconditionally & eternally. I can do no wrong in his eyes, I am perfect to Him, I bring Him great joy & it is a pleasure to watch me grow, I am safe in His presence, His Son lifts me up & ignites my soul, I am a fierce empress who loves this planet & this body more profoundly with each breath that I take... okay that’s a little exaggerated, but I am a queen who deserves to be abundant & prosperous. I am a woman worthy of an abundant life. I am whole & bountiful, I am fertile & free. There is nothing that I cannot not attain. I am limitless. I am a child of God, in His eyes I am worthy, I am a faithful saint. I am an empowered woman dedicated to empowering the lives of other woman so that they may break free from the limiting beliefs placed upon them from their ancestors. I am moving & inspirational, I am a success, I am a fearless leader sent here to change the world. I am a peace maker. I am a channel for love to express itself through. I am more than a human being. I am a soul with infinite potential. Nobody can tell me what to do. Nobody can persuade me. I am One with The Divine. I am His faithful Lover & Child. He supports my thoughts of a fruitful & beautiful life. I am motivated by love & rage. I am passionate about my purpose. I move forward with God Confidence. I am successful in all areas of my life where I let God live through me. I seek the beauty that is within me & I spill out love from every inch of my being. I am dripping with compassion & understanding. I am here. I am listening. I am loyal to you, I am here for you.

God: You are not alone. You are surrounded by benevolent support, do not be afraid. All is well. You are here for a purpose. You are here for a reason. Allow yourself to relax into the comfort of my love, my child, I will hold you in my mind so that you will feel strong in my presence. I am always here for you, you must only remember to come Home to Me in every moment. Feel my overwhelming Love for you, use it to flood the world with Hope. Use your gifts that I gave you, they are your key to prosperity, do not doubt your talents. Do not compare your talents to that of others. You are unique in your Birthright. I made you to be special. You are perfect to me just as you are. You do not need to doubt or question your abilities. You are my Child & I have placed you in the care of some of my most trusted friends, call upon Us if you need our support. Gratitude is your ticket out of here, until then, know that you are safe, you are protected, listen to your intuition. You are moving in a new direction, but it is blessed beyond measure, you can trust that. Please keep your mind open & this will keep your heart open. Release expectations & hold onto your faith. Stay focused on your health & body. Allow yourself to relax.

Me: I am a powerhouse, I am unstoppable, I am compassionate & loving to every person I encounter, I extend my GodLove to all beings, my supply is unlimited. I wake up each morning & immediately see Him in my image. I am His Child, I am honored to be seen by Him in such High Esteem. I respect myself. I honor my own knowing. I trust in Him because I trust in Me. I am God. I am His faithful servant. I am here to show the world how to be a Child of God. How to faithfully serve Him so that they may live their most bountiful & prosperous lives. That They are worthy of infinite abundance. Every man is a man of God. He loves all. He accepts all. All nationalities. All genders. All beings are recognized by God.

God: Do not fret over being adorned by your peers. Do not seek to be recognized by fame. Seek to be recognized by your Eternal Father. Make it your mission to find your adoration in Him. Become a Child of Him & you will be abundantly supplied for. Your honor should never come from outside, it is within your Heart that you will find your Kingdom. You are a God/Goddess in His eyes, He sees you, He hears you, but are you looking for Him? Are you listening for Him? Do you place your focus on Him or do you place it on Them? Put your mind on Me & I will show you the way, you must only Trust Me, beloved. You are forever cared for. I am here with you, always, in all ways. I am everywhere. Your job is only to Seek Me, & I will always Be Here. I am only ever Now. I cannot be gone, for I am only gone if You are gone. When I am found, You are found. When you were lost You called out for me, I had been waiting for You to hear me all along, but You ignored me. You pushed Me aside for recognition from others, for money, for status & titles, for possessions, friends, lovers & addictions. When you stopped Listening to Me. When You chose to stop hearing Me, You abandoned only You. Come back to the True You & that’s where you’ll find Me too.

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When I read through this I am reminded of who I am through the eyes of God, I see that I am never lacking, but always abundant with Love when I choose to place my focus on “Him”. I wanted to use this as a reminder to those who may be struggling to see the light, who are struggling to find the hope, who are struggling to recognize the purpose. I too have days when the darkness of doubt is all consuming, but It is that fear that catapults me further into my faith, further into the depths of my eternal Self and it is there, in those moments of complete surrender to All That Is, that I am reminded of my strength, of my power of my purpose. And with each breakdown I am breaking through, like a seed pushing through the darkness of the Earth and into the light. You can do hard things, I believe in you, now all you have to do is believe in you too.

Thank you for reading!

Love and light, Ashley <3